Just wanted to share just a few of my very first graphic creations that I taught myself how to make using Jasc Paintshop Pro 7 & 9, along with Jasc Animation Shop 3. It pains me to say, but these babies are about 20 years old (around the same age I learned). For the ‘blinkies’ and ‘dolls’ I did use a couple websites that don’t exist anymore to create the template/dolls and the last one I got the image somewhere online and just animated it. Other than that, these are mine, I created them.

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Just a few of my all-time favs!

Although Im 99% sure my weight gain has been due to my last increased dosage of my antidepressant (which I will be discussing changing with my doctor soon), I have also been taking other measures to help with losing or attempting to lose some or all of the weight Ive gained in the past few months. I no longer binge eat. Im at a place where I can stop myself and really think about the consequences which leads to me not wanting to. I’m attempting to eat healthier, get more protein in my diet. I say attempt because I’m on a pretty tight budget and can’t afford to buy the proper things all the time but Im making an effort and even learning some easy recipes. Being more active. Going on more walks, trying to keep my body and brain busy and just keep my body moving. If I find I’ve been sitting for longer than I should, I’ll get up, walk around, stretch or “shake it off”. …Keep Reading ♥

I have been really thinking about talking to my doctor about switching my antidepressant. The only thing that was really holding me back was the fact that in May 2025 I was taken off all of my mental health medications (been on numerous kinds since the age of 15) and started from scratch. In July 2025 I started out with 5mg of fluoxetine and by October 2025 started my current dose of 40mg. It has been working but there are a couple of side effects that I don’t like and I never experienced them when I was on escitalopram. I also feel the escitalopram helped alot more with my social anxiety, I just feel I wasn’t on the correct dose that would work for me. If by chance I end up switching and discovering that the escitalopram has more side effects or does not work as well as fluoxetine, then I will switch back to fluoxetine, which honestly would be great without these 2 major side effects; however, I am willing to live with those side effects if it turns out the escitalopram isn’t working properly. I was just really hoping not to have to try different SSRI’s as that’s how I basically spent my entire 20’s doing, but I am willing to do so if it means being the best I can be in order to manage my conditions.

 I’ve been on my new antidepressants for about 6 months now, and although it took some dosage adjustments followed by time, they seem to be working pretty good. However, I have 2 side effects that are lingering around and not to mention they are just 2 of the handful of side effects that could occur that I extremely dis like and feel I’d be doing even better without these side effects. Ive been on my fair share of SSRI’s over the years, and with a few came with living with certain side effects which has always made it worth it in the long haul. However, I feel that the SSRI I was on prior to my serotonin syndrome induced psychosis had very few side effects and did not have the main 2 Im currently struggling with. 

I think I will discuss possibly going back on my previous medication as I feel if it could make me feel like this without the 2 particular side effects Id feel even better and excel. However, Im also scared to go through the whole switching process just to find out it didn’t work as well and go back on these ones. It definitely takes alot of time and experimenting (under a doctor’s care) to find the right one(s) that work. Im still trying over 20 years later. Im still optimistic though.