I can’t believe 2026 is just a few days away. This year flew by and I don’t know about any of you but for myself, 2025 was hands down one of the hardest years I’ve had to navigate through my entire adult, if not entire life. That being said, I have remained strong, resilient, and have learned more this past year than ever. I am going to remain open and optimistic as I head into 2026 and although I am aware I may face some difficult challenges/choices this coming year, it will be for the best. A few things that I am trying to include into a routine for myself in 2026 for my own personal growth and overall health:

– More protein in my diet. For this, I have begun to incorporate a protein shake into my life daily.

– Organic apple cider vinegar. Upon research, I have learned this can provide numerous benefits health-wise.

– Although I wish I could afford GPL1 injections, I can’t afford to. Thus, I have researched some more natural more affordable options in which I will be starting soon and will track my progress.

– Weights. I’ve always believed cardio was the best option to reduce and maintain a healthy weight. Upon doing my own research, weights are more important, especially when you get older.

– Starting a regular skin care routine. At 42 years old (even though I look much younger) I feel now is the time to take this more serioursly especially to maintain my younger appearance naturally (meaning nothing surgically or cosmetically)

– Reducing/cutting out my sugar intake. I have done so more than once in the past with great results, I have not been able to maintain this lifestyle change and sugar is one of my body’s worst enemies.

– Creating some sort of social life. Normally, my life consists of working and spending my free time alone at home. It is very lonely and not much of a life so I intend to “live” a more productive, happy life while maintaining as normal of a mentally healthy lifestyle as I possibly can.

These are just a few of my goals I am going to be putting my effort into for 2026 and beyond. I hope to document my progress/lack thereof via my blog as I find this is a better option for myself rather than just journaling. Even if no one ever reads it, accomplishing regular posts would be more fulfilling for me.

 It’s been a while since I posted and a lot has happened. Been working on my mental health and just being the best person I can be. So, what’s new you ask? Well, after 6 months off of work I’ve been back now for a little over a month and although I love being back, it is taking some time to get used to. Im also on new depression/anxiety medication as well as new ADHD medication, so Im also adjusting to that as well but so far so good.

I quit smoking weed, which is huge as I was a daily, multiple times a day user for a constant 6 years. Ive learned that it is just not a right fit for me personally and ultimately led me into psychosis on more than one occasion, and let me tell you, that is NOT fun! It was actually quit. I don’t miss nor crave it and am fine if others use it around me.

What is NOT easy is quitting vaping. I started vaping about 6 years ago when I quit smoking cigarettes. Its been about a month and half since I quit and it is still hard. I don’t crave the nicotine nor the habit of it. I think for myself, I associated it with using it as an instant tool or crutch for stress and anxiety. I can keep going, but don’t want to bore my non existant audiance haha. I will be posting on a more regular basis though as I need to fill my time in with more productive ways.

 In a previous post I discussed in not too much detail about my mental health and the struggles I was (and have been facing/dealing with for a number of years) and how I was ‘starting over’. Starting over means being taken off all of my mental health medications that I had been on for a number of years and being reevaluated and starting new medications as well as different forms of therapy and coaching to help me maintain and manage my conditions. A huge factor that I really wish I had known/learned over 20 years ago, is that having mental health issues (s) doesn’t simply mean taking medication and various forms of therapy. It, in fact, is an entire lifestyle change. The majority of individuals who are living and struggling with one or many mental health conditions are led to believe that taking medication and therapy will make them “normal”. However, this is not the case. Why? Simple, medication and therapy for mental health issues will NEVER make someone who has had and has to continue with these conditions their entire life normal. Our brains are not wired like “normal” brains. I will get more in depth with this on a future post.

 After being on the same medication since I was 15 years old (currently 41 years old), I’ve been taken off all of them to start from scratch. It’s hard and going to be a long process. I’ve since started new medication, but like all mental health medication, it takes a while to begin to work. I’ve also been advised (since being discharged from the hospital) that my current home is “not a safe place” for me to be while my body gets used to the new medication. All I want to do is go home. 

In addition to the medication, I have been enrolled and participating in various group therapies, on a waiting list for a psychiatrist and given resources to help me find and obtain new low-income housing. However, I can’t start a lot of this much-needed ‘help’ without being at home. Although the medication is starting to help with my depression and anxiety conditions, I have not started anything for my ADHD, which is, in my personal opinion, vital as I have no motivation, no energy, can’t focus and am extremely irritable and agitated. 

I’m also working on becoming more physically healthy, as mental and physical health are tied, and you can’t be physically healthy without being mentally healthy and vice versa. It’s not easy. It’s not fun. It is an entire lifestyle change in which I am committed to and trying my absolute best, but not being able to go home yet is very discouraging. Day by day, as they say.

Peace, Light & Love ❤

 In my entire 41 and ‘X’ amount of days I’ve existed on this planet, in this life, just about half of it (basically my entire adult life) I’ve been a renter long enough to know what good tenants and not so good tenants are like. I have also learned a lot from my former step mother who has been a landlord for over 40 years and not only did I help with odd jobs creating 2 suites in her now 4plex, but also from being my ex step mother’s tenants twice. After some ‘incidents’ (the past is the past no point into devouring my energy to explain) I started to get more family with the landlord tenancy laws in the province in which I reside.

Now, I’ve lived in 4 basement suites in my life, and am currently renting one at the present time and have been for over 10 years. In those 10 years, I have had the same tenant living above me. Now, I’ve lived in basement suites where up to 10 people were living above me straight through having no one living above me. When I moved into my current living area I had just moved to the city, un planned, ect. Don’t get me wrong, I am extremely grateful for having a roof over my head and especially for the price that I am paying to live in it, even though my landlord is not even remotely close to being a landlord. 

I hadn’t even talked to the tenant upstairs until about 7 years I to living where I am (I know, crazy!) The first 7 years I tip toed around, hid inside, didn’t even feel comfortable even sitting on the steps outside my door, literally freezing in the winter, putting up with ridiculous shit yet kept my mouth shut, never complained. I’m not a fan of confrontation but I had a gut feeling that the tenant upstairs (whom I originally was led to believe we were on good terms) and decided fuck this and sent him a text asking to meet me out back. He responded he would in a minute so I went outside and waited, so nervous, I admit, I can talk a big talk but have zip to back it up 🤣) and when he finally came out, I looked him dead in the eye and asked, “we good”? Before responding he broke eye contact looked down to his left and shook his head casually saying, “No.” A lie. I could tell by the tone and everything but didn’t let on that I didn’t believe him. I am a highly sensitive person, and empath you may say. So, I just want all you other empaths and sensitive old souls know that they can only win if you let them. “Them”? Energy vampires.