My goal this year regarding my blog is the following:

• Post frequently/on a somewhat regular schedule
• Include more information regarding mental health issues, in particular ADHD
• Provide useful resources 
• Updates on my own journey of living and maintaining my own mental health issues
• An outlet for my own personal opinions on various topics
• Possibly putting my blog more “out there” to attract actual readers (hoping to build my confidence to do so lol)

I will be including more content and links as well. Posting throughout this year is my biggest personal goal for the year!

 There’s been a lot of news and articles for a while regarding the Epstein Files. If you’re unfamiliar with the topic, either you don’t watch the news, don’t have any social media (or internet), or basically, you live under a rock, but you can click here to see the Google search results. I am not going to get into any details or facts, rather just share a quick personal opinion and well, fear I have.

In my personal opinion, I 100% and fully support the files being released. However, that being said I also have a fear. My fear is that the individuals on that list are, in fact, not great human beings. There are a lot of celebrities that are on this list, allegedly and my fear is “how many of them on that list will I end up losing respect for and supporting.” Of course, I think everyone should be aware of what these people are really like, but it would be disappointing to say the least, finding out someone you originally thought was a good human being and maybe even idolized turns out to be the opposite. 

For example, I have lost respect and will no longer support celebrities such as Will Smith, Jada Pinkett Smith, Sean Combs and Niki Minaj, just to name a few. Listing these people are not related to the Epstein Files (then again who knows!) but for other various reasons. All in all, it’s just sad, but I’d rather know who is on the list even if I originally was a fan and boycotting being a fan than to continue to support truly horrible individuals who are criminals.

 I can’t believe 2026 is just a few days away. This year flew by and I don’t know about any of you but for myself, 2025 was hands down one of the hardest years I’ve had to navigate through my entire adult, if not entire life. That being said, I have remained strong, resilient, and have learned more this past year than ever. I am going to remain open and optimistic as I head into 2026 and although I am aware I may face some difficult challenges/choices this coming year, it will be for the best. A few things that I am trying to include into a routine for myself in 2026 for my own personal growth and overall health:

– More protein in my diet. For this, I have begun to incorporate a protein shake into my life daily.

– Organic apple cider vinegar. Upon research, I have learned this can provide numerous benefits health-wise.

– Although I wish I could afford GPL1 injections, I can’t afford to. Thus, I have researched some more natural more affordable options in which I will be starting soon and will track my progress.

– Weights. I’ve always believed cardio was the best option to reduce and maintain a healthy weight. Upon doing my own research, weights are more important, especially when you get older.

– Starting a regular skin care routine. At 42 years old (even though I look much younger) I feel now is the time to take this more serioursly especially to maintain my younger appearance naturally (meaning nothing surgically or cosmetically)

– Reducing/cutting out my sugar intake. I have done so more than once in the past with great results, I have not been able to maintain this lifestyle change and sugar is one of my body’s worst enemies.

– Creating some sort of social life. Normally, my life consists of working and spending my free time alone at home. It is very lonely and not much of a life so I intend to “live” a more productive, happy life while maintaining as normal of a mentally healthy lifestyle as I possibly can.

These are just a few of my goals I am going to be putting my effort into for 2026 and beyond. I hope to document my progress/lack thereof via my blog as I find this is a better option for myself rather than just journaling. Even if no one ever reads it, accomplishing regular posts would be more fulfilling for me.

 It’s been a while since I posted and a lot has happened. Been working on my mental health and just being the best person I can be. So, what’s new you ask? Well, after 6 months off of work I’ve been back now for a little over a month and although I love being back, it is taking some time to get used to. Im also on new depression/anxiety medication as well as new ADHD medication, so Im also adjusting to that as well but so far so good.

I quit smoking weed, which is huge as I was a daily, multiple times a day user for a constant 6 years. Ive learned that it is just not a right fit for me personally and ultimately led me into psychosis on more than one occasion, and let me tell you, that is NOT fun! It was actually quit. I don’t miss nor crave it and am fine if others use it around me.

What is NOT easy is quitting vaping. I started vaping about 6 years ago when I quit smoking cigarettes. Its been about a month and half since I quit and it is still hard. I don’t crave the nicotine nor the habit of it. I think for myself, I associated it with using it as an instant tool or crutch for stress and anxiety. I can keep going, but don’t want to bore my non existant audiance haha. I will be posting on a more regular basis though as I need to fill my time in with more productive ways.

 In a previous post I discussed in not too much detail about my mental health and the struggles I was (and have been facing/dealing with for a number of years) and how I was ‘starting over’. Starting over means being taken off all of my mental health medications that I had been on for a number of years and being reevaluated and starting new medications as well as different forms of therapy and coaching to help me maintain and manage my conditions. A huge factor that I really wish I had known/learned over 20 years ago, is that having mental health issues (s) doesn’t simply mean taking medication and various forms of therapy. It, in fact, is an entire lifestyle change. The majority of individuals who are living and struggling with one or many mental health conditions are led to believe that taking medication and therapy will make them “normal”. However, this is not the case. Why? Simple, medication and therapy for mental health issues will NEVER make someone who has had and has to continue with these conditions their entire life normal. Our brains are not wired like “normal” brains. I will get more in depth with this on a future post.